#BlogTour In Her Words by @Joannewriter
In Her Words
by J.S Ellis
While she seems to have it all, Sophie Knight is looking for more. When gorgeous and carefree Michael Frisk walks into her life, he offers the excitement and passion she desires.
Sophie is willing to risk everything she has. After all, she is used to concealing things from her husband—like her alcoholism, her unhappiness. But soon she has more to hide. She wakes up one morning in an alcoholic haze and finds bruises on her body, but has no recollection of what happened to her. Was she raped?
When unsettling notes and mysterious phone calls start, Sophie wonders whom she should turn to. Is Michael the cause of the frightening things happening in her life, or is he the answer to her problems?
I don’t understand how men think, but mostly it’s with their cocks. Boys like him-at such tender age, they want to experiment, learn, and gain the experience. At their age, they focus on their pleasure rather than on their partners, they want to get on with it and move on to something else. But, for a split second, as I hurried away from him, I imagined what it would be like to lay beneath him. To have his hands on my body, that mouth on my neck and on my breasts. Teaching him what he didn’t learn in school. I shivered, what’s wrong with me? What is happening to me? What is this? I looked over my shoulder. He lingered on the pavement watching me. The drinking is bad enough, but Michael tempting me into being disloyal to my husband is monstrous. I poured myself a large glass of gin, which danced in my mouth.
After eleven years of marriage, I never thought about what I’ll look like in the eyes of other men, especially younger men. My main concern is what I look like in the eyes of my husband. He doesn’t say much, he doesn’t have to remind me he loves me, and he’s aware of how I feel about him. I have shown my love, and I have proved it. I’ve been there for him every step of the way.
Because we’ve had a faithful marriage, I haven’t thought about what it might feel like to be kissed by someone other than my husband. To feel the pressure of another man’s mouth pressed against mine. To feel his foreign touch on my body, not until now. Things fall asleep after marriage. It’s natural that sexual alertness dies down.
I am grateful to be married. I don’t have to put myself out there ever again. I don’t have to sit across from someone and prove I am the right candidate. Dating is a form of a job interview for me, at least it was. That’s why I only had a string of long-term relationships. Dating just wasn’t for me. In fact, when I got married, I was relieved I didn’t have to kiss or stand naked in front of strangers ever again.
The few dates I had were friendly meetings that sometimes ended in bed. I had forgotten how it feels, and how exhilarating it can be, and yet the buzz of it all, to be a little scared. Today, with Michael, it came back in an instant, the high of it all. How could I have gone on without it all of these years? Did I sleepwalk through them?
About the Author:
J.S Ellis is a thriller author. She’s currently working on an adult Dystopian series called the Chaperone. She’s also working on another thriller novel, for now, it’s called Opium, as it’s still a wip.
J.S always liked to scribble from a young age but started writing by the age of sixteen. She spent all this time, enhancing and learning about the craft. Writing is her passion books are her obsession.
She has a degree in Creative Writing, English literature, and digital marketing. She works in an accountancy firm. She lives in Malta with her fiancé. When she’s not writing or reading, she’s either cooking, eating cheese, and chocolate, or listening to good music and enjoying a glass of wine or two.